The Esoteric Code of G-d

Have you ever wondered why Jews would be so intimidated by English that they would blasphemy against the word "GOD" and thus change the inherent design in the name to suit their own mystical purposes? Gematria, Kabballah, and other forms of "mystical Arts" indeed, do, invite fascinating insights into why words and letter structures are as "they are".I mean. What is this nonsense of "no self